Discoveries if a cancer survivor

As I get to know other cancer survivors, we discover that we share other thoughts beside survival.When we get a belly ache, its cancer of the small intestine, cough and a cold, lung cancer, gas pains under and around your heart, coronary artery disease.It is a vicious cycle that disallowed me to hold my 4 day old grandaughter because I was afraid I would lose my balance and drop her (she is such a little peanut.....all I want to do is hold her.And hold her I will because most of my symptoms are exaggerated just making me weak.

I may not even bowl tomorrow night if I feel like I did all weekend. On a positive note, I ate food each of he past 4 days. I will get my appetite back. I really want to move to Arizona healthy.....not 3 months and dirtnap. I want to live at least another 30 years and negotiate from there 1 year contracts with options to renew.Marti and I deserve the happiness young love promises.
So I'm making an appointment with the recommended cardiologist to go ove tmy EKG and eCHO AND carotid artery and plan our attack. We'll just have to see which treatment will give me my energy back.

Whats happening in your shop?

Its been a rather early start to the holiday season at deer park. Lots of walk ins pricing everything from resin bags to HR professional 4 to 6 ball bags, newest bowling balls to closeout of last year's weapons.Selling between 2 and4 balls daily 3 cases a week. Some lessons scheduled with the Deer Park HS and the North Babylon HS and 1 with Copiague. Bowling on Mondays in East Islip, arguably, the highest scoring house in Long Island/Been dizzy a lot, chest pains of a minor non threatening manner. Got to step away from the fear and put it in a locked box,........I want to win a banner in the region and the national tour.That is my goal for the upcoming season.Those who know me, can figure out why this year.Of course at this age (62), its logical that I do not have a whole lot of time to become a major force on tour.....so its one shot at a time,matching up with the best equipment (in my case Track, Columbia, Ebonite and Hammer) As long as I can breathe and walk and repeat shots, I'll play what is there. I also intend to renew friendships, really hanging out with my fellow competitors, discussing bowling, equipment, and what golf clubs seem to work best in windy conditions.....lol.Either way, see all of you in
April in
Dayton. Staying at the Studio6 if its still there......great prices,quiet place and super clean! Speak to y'all after the cardiologists office next Tuesday. Enjoy the weekend ......stay warm.
Gary

Sometimes, you got to step back and take in the beauty

I know that its been over a month since my last entry.......its been a month that included Atlantic City a few times, 2 bowling disappointing tournaments, "Midnight Madness" shopping Thanksgiving Night out in Riverhead at the Tanger Outlets (it was a blast), taking medication and worrying over every heart beat and uncomfortable feeling near my heart after eating. Going to see a cardiologist on Monday in order to get on the road to clearing up what is and putting to rest what isn't. I have been very worried, unable to eat at the hours we are accustomed and scared that I have some serious work ahead of me, Thank God I stopped smoking 3 years ago.......I can't imagine how bad this would be!

If all my tests come out okay, or I need an angioplasty, we will plan to go to Phoenix around January 12-January 21 to look for our dream home in the desert of the sun. Naturally, if I need bypass surgery, the trip and purchase will be delayed until I finish rehabbing.......we'll just have to see.

My customers are doing well with the equipment i have chosen for them along with the first lesson thats included in their purchase. 2 different bowlers of mine shot 2 300s and 1 300 respectively.......Great publicity for the shop!

My game is still coming around, using primarily Ebocoltracker equipment.
especially love the Track 715A and 505A, the Columbia 300 Full Swing and Bedlam and Freeze and the Ebonite Magic series and the Evolve. It seems that Track and Ebonite respond best to my limited rev rate and lower speed.Great stuff coming out of Hopkinsville.........thanks Mr. Gallagher, Mr.Figliomieni, Mr. Murphy and Mr. Ussery. You guys along with your r and d staff, chemists, pourers.....you are all doing a great job and getting the product out there. Its an easy sell at all price points: something good for everyone!

Getting a bit tired.....its almost 3:30 AM........will blog later next week.
Thanks and love to all!

October 20.....York, PA, high blood pressure et al

This is the color my faced turned when the MD told me that my constant (25 years) 130/80 blood pressure was 161/102 in both arms. This is a problem that was never present and has scared the living daylughts out of me. On the other hand, I feel great......lots of energy, good appetite, trips to AC every 3 weeks and working as much as possible........along with practicing at least 6 games a day.......does that sound like someone with a heart and/or vascular problem?
Started taking a blood pressure med Monday and already there is a slight movement downward on my pressure..........maybe it spiked because of the stress of Marti's house, her Mother's house, us looking for a house in AZ, my defaulted loans on credit cards (2) 50 k, .......no wonder my pressure is high......lol.

I had originally planned to bowl the York senior regional since the schedule came out, along with the tournament 2 weeks later in Brookville. If my practice today goes well, and I feel good......York, PA.....heeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrreeeeeeesssss Gary!
Pressure was 145/92 this morning compared to 160/105 last night. I'll be fine!

October 1 and all is what it is

Being a pro bowler who has lost the heart to compete is like being a man without a country. After 5 years of disappointment and dissolution, I have pretty much forced myself to find other things to do rather than shoeing up and bowling. I continue to be the greatest practice bowler in the history of the sport.....lol.....but I still cannot make that translate into the greatness I need to compete on the PBA level. It is such an enigma!!!!!!

I still plan on visiting Lou in Michigan and with his expertise and help, evaluate where I am at......and what I need to do to be where I want to be.

I will keep my few followers appraised of my progress or lack thereof.

PS.....yes, I am very depressed about having this dream turn into a nightmare.
Thank God for a wife who STILL believes in me! I love her with all that I am!

Explanation of previous post

I spent the past 3 weeks since leaving Decatur, agonizing over what the hell went wrong with Mr.Super-Senior Pro. Itwas a major struggle in both Hammond and Decatur. So much so, that instead of picking up Marti and trudging up to Lansing, MI, I canceled out of those tournaments,and spent 2 weeks traveling to Reading PA and the Amish country, Atlantic City and the slots, Cooperstown: The Shrine of Baseball along woth the Farmer's Museum, and, oh yes, amregional tournament in Pottstown PA where I finished 3 from the bottom, but actually bowled better than I had all summer.At the very least, Marti and I had a fun vacation with shopping and education being the focal points, along woth some decision making regarding how to break throug on tour.
1. I plan to see the best Gold-rated coach in the world : Lou Marquez, and come up witn a physical solution to the problem that would cause a mental solution to the same.
2. No league play, just practice and local tournaments.
3. Seiously and realistically looking at a substitution activity for the time andeffort I put in to bowling, just in case I never return to required competitive skill set that I possessed for many years and lost 5 years ago (along with part of my esophogus and part of my stomach and all of my confidence!
I will keep you all informed.

regrouping is NOT another word for quitting!]